Psalm 46:10

"Be still and know that I am God." (NIV)




"Stand silent! Know that I am God!" (TLB)





"Give in," He cries, "admit that I am God!" (Moffat)




"Step out of the traffic! Take a long, loving look at me, your High God, above politics...ABOVE EVERYTHING." (The Message)

Point of Exhaustion

Tonight is one of those nights that my life lives out Romans 8:26. I am to the point of exhaustion where I cannot even sleep or eat...With the pressure of 2 big finals tomorrow morning who could? Christmas is a week and a half away and I haven't gotten everyone's presents yet and I am very pressured to do that as well.

During the past two weeks I have gone through the day always looking behind me expecting those perverts to follow me again. I never feel safe on campus, it is sad but true. Then to carry the burden of a friend who is struggeling upon my shoulders. How I cry in pain experiencing such anguish in the pit of my stomach until I can cry no more. Lately, my shoulders feel so heavy so exhausted by this load, my strength has finally trickled down to the last drop where I don't have anything left...and at that moment tonight, a fight with my boyfriend was added upon my luggage. Feeling exhausted, hurt, and pained with a workload of studying for finals is near impossible without the Lord.

Different

Sometimes....a girl can feel not good enough for her boyfriend. Tonight was one of those nights. I am so different from him. And somehow I feel the need to apologize even though I have nothing to apologize for, I am just being myself! But it hurts to see myself as different. Everyone says that opposites attract, but how? I dont understand.....

Trusting in those stars

When I cannot rely on myself anymore in life, when my own strength is just not good enough and I am left hopeless, trusting in God is my only other option. Trusting His promises is so easy to say but so hard to accomplish. How can I trust Him? But then I think "How can I not trust Him??!!" He gave up His life to save mine! When has he proven himself wrong ever in my life? NEVER. So why this immediate doubt? If God has always proved Himself to be faithful to me, why do I still doubt Him? God's promises are like the stars; the darker the night the brighter they shine. Lord....teach me to trust you....

Our Thinking

God: a disease we imagine we are cured of because no one dies of it nowadays.

The Moments to Remember

Some typical moments I sometimes wish would happen with me and my boyfriend are kissing in the rain, dancing in a fancy ballgown in a parking lot under a starry sky of course with the lovesongs on the radio, him showing up unannounced on my doorstep just to see me again, him taking me on a picnic at night on the beach, etc...all s out there you know what I am talking about.

Every has dreams...but you know I found dating my boyfriend is those are not what is important even though I may have the most romantic night of my life. I wouldn't not consider my boyfriend to be the best because he was "the man of my dreams" by dancing with me in the parking lot, or showing up to suprise me even though I would love him for it.

I consider my boyfriend to be so great because he respects me as a person. He protects me and cares about my safety. He goes out of his way to be open for me to run to him about anything I am upset about. He prays for me and for our relationship. I love how he puts his family first although I give him so much grief over it, but it is true- I love how he loves his family and desires to connect and spend time with them. He has such a compassionate and kind heart. And last of all his love for the Lord is what I probably love the most.
So in the end, I found out that character in a man is more valuable than romantic settings that I had dreamed of experiencing with someone. I would pick my current boyfriend over one of my "typical moments" any day of the week!

Do you cry Jesus?

Do you cry Jesus when the perfect world meant for beautiful holiness is now full of sin and lies- where everything decays, everything faces an end? Do you cry Jesus when the people you made to spend eternity with in heaven choose eternity in hell instead? Do you cry Jesus when the people you suffered and died for turn their backs on you and curse your holy name? Do you cry for naive souls that are mislead by lies of the world? When you watch tears fall from every person's eyes; when you hear the brokenhearted souls desperately needing a Savior in their life, do you cry Jesus?

Rescue Mission

So tonight Nicole calls me and tells me that she needed to be picked up. Her car broke down, and she was stuck at a gas station. She sounded stressed and cold. Picturing her in "Baby", the smoking '98 Mercury Sable, I imagined my sister dressed up for a party shivering in the car all alone in the middle of December, tired and hungry and counting down the minutes until help arrived. She was probably thinking of countless possibilities in order to fix the situation or if she were really bored, imagining to the extent of how she would survive the night if no help could come till morning. "Well I could use the blanket in the backseat to wrap myself up in, and my purse could be my pillow. I would wake up every couple hours to relock my car just in case, and possibly try the car again after it has cooled down a bit. I could wear the extra clothes that I carry in my bag on top of what I am wearing to keep warm too.", she would ponder.
Brushing the worst possible scenarios out of my brain I hung up the phone and yelled upstairs for my little sister, who I was babysitting at home, to get her shoes on because we were going for a roadtrip. I then went down to the basement taking the steps two at a time. When I came back up to the kitchen Rachel was ready to go with a big smile on her face. She couldn't wait to free her older sister from the evil villain who held her captive at Wawa! As I adjusted her hat, I tied a black cape around her coat. And then tied a red cape around my own coat. She gave me a look of confusion. "Well, we can't be superheroes without capes now can we?", I asked. She looked back at her cape and then at me. Her reply, "Let's do it! Superheroes to the rescue!" and immediately we sped away to rescue Nicole!! In no time at all we made it to the "Wawa Tower" where our dear princess was being held! I see Nicole's face as we pull into a parking space two down. She was all astounded that we had come, for she had told us not to because the King, our dad, was on his way from Fraser to pick her up instead, but we didn't care! Our sister was in trouble! We parked, climbed "off our sturdy steed" and with our fist high in the air and our capes flying in the wind, we ran over to her. Her laugh was so loud we could hear it through the car! She thought it was the coolest thing ever! MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.

One Long Distance Call...

I was walking toward the parking lot after class. My hands were balled into fists. Hot tears were streaming down my face; I don't understand! "I thought God was supposed to be planning my life!! Where the carbs is He? Has he not heard me?" I wanted to stop in the middle of the sidewalk and scream at the sky "CAN'T YOU SEE ME DOWN HERE?!!", but thought better of it, considering there were cars and people all around me.
"I wish I could just talk with God outloud right now!" *ding!* The lightbulb suddenly turned on in my head! I grabbed my cell phone out of my pocket and flipped it open and said "Hello?" The was no answer on the other line. "Oh hey.", I replied. Still no answer. I glanced around; nobody seemed to be bothered by my behavior, I appeared to be having a normal conversation on the phone. "You may think this weird talking to you like this on the phone, but I just wanted to make sure you hear me down here. Sometimes I feel like I can't trust you! Like you assigned me this college, this career and there is nothing I can do about it! I just don't understand! Just help me understand! Please I need you to open my eyes so I can trust you!" I listened, and God actually talked back to me! He responded! I listened for a few minutes before responding, "Yes. I know. It's so hard though....I am sorry for not trusting you. I will talk to you later ok? bye." And I shut my phone and stuffed it back in my pocket like every other college student would do when ending a phone conversation. I smiled. Because I knew my call was directly from heaven....how cool is that. :)

Get Chatty with God

Why is language so important you may ask? Language makes humans unique. We live in a world of language. We talk to our friends, associates, wives or husbands, our teachers, our parents, our rivals, even our enemies or total strangers. We talk face to face, and over the telephone, and you know what? Everyone responds with more talk back!! Hardly a moment of our waking lives is free from words, and then even in our dreams we talk and are talked to! We also talk when there is no one to answer us, we may think aloud or sing to ourselves.

This distinguishes us from animals. In some tribes in Africa, a newborn child is considered an animal and not fully human until he or she learns to speak their tongue?!! Wherever humans exist, language exists. The ability of human beings to acquire, know and use language is rooted in the structure of our brains!

God, the Author of everything living, created you and me with the ability to communicate! Isaiah 1:18 says, "Come let us reason together." God desires to chat with us! He wants us to interact with Him! Communicating is part of who He is and since we were created in His image, we are created with ability to speak with Him and with others. He shows Adam in Genesis right off the bat with how to communicate by commanding him to name the animals. God loves when we come to Him about anything and talk it over with Him. How easily I take words for granted, may you open my eyes anew to the wonders in your creation Oh Lord...